This Time

I've been dreading having to report to you girls how I've been doing.

Let's recap:
Saturday things were looking up, I was 121lbs and went to Twirl's house, which lead to one of her friends driving us to Soul Sister's.
Resulting in us smoking pot.
I was doing so fucking well, then SS dad brought Pizza and FRIES! Like WTF FRIES AND PIZZA?!

I also found out SS is 115lbs, so definite thing to shoot for. She and I have always been just about the same height and I've always been super jealous of how skinny she is. Fear not though, since being on birth control she got so much fatter (But still at a healthy weight, seeing as she used to be 98lbs).

Sunday I just felt horrible with how bad I was at dancing.

This whole week has just been me stuffing my face as much as possible and not purging.

Leading me to weigh in at 126.8lbs.

What am I doing to myself?

I did some damage control 2 hours ago, so hopefully no more eating tonight.

I also just seemed to realize that I have just about no friends, justa few that I see every few weeks-months. How the fuck do you make friends??? I seriously seem to suck at that skill, seeing as I have virtually none. But like where do normal teenagers meet friends when they really don't get out. I know that most find there's in high school, but seeing as I don't go, I'm at a loss.