Mr. Blue Sky

So last night I finally broke my 3 day fast.

Binged like a true fat kid.

Luckily I purged, and I am now 126lbs even! I have some exciting news as well:
I fit into some of my awesome dark green skinny jeans (They're a size 1 but fit like a 3ish). Of course I still have quite a bit of muffin top but FUCK I COULD BUTTON THEM. Anyways, I just had a zip up hoodie over it to mask the spillage and it looked great! I was so damn happy going to Good Enough school today (GED=Good Enough Diploma, haha). We also got to leave early, due to snow.

To make today even better I wrote an essay by myself! Now this is a very hard thing for me, because specific topics are very hard. While I can comprehend and think it up, it is VERY hard to put words to paper. I felt pretty accomplished. Then I came home and finished the rest of my social studies so I can take the pretest for that, AND did a bit of language arts as well. Best yet, rehearsal was cancelled tonight, so no driving for a long while!

I've just been sitting in my room, listening to my awesome playlist of songs that I just love, and gave myself a little treat for being so great (A vicodin and half a gabapentin).

I did drink the other half of this huge gatorade I was working on since sunday, but fuck it, it was only 100 cals. Then I chugged quite a bit of a Powerade zero (The strawberry seriously tastes like jello when it's still liquid). Now I temporarily have no desire to eat, which is great because I was SO hungry for some toast with jam.

I really prefer not eat, because I can not control myself after the first bite, that's why I suck at restricting. So for now I'm doing liquid calories and a binge and purge session here and there to quench my maddening appetite.

Right now I feel really just all over great (It is noted that I had an *extra* boost).

I noticed that if I lose about 2-3lbs more I will finally be able to go back to bing a C-cup. Finding a 34C is much nicer than scouring the stores for a 34D, the hardest fucxking size in the world to find!