If You See Kay

All I can say is I am so fat.

I keep hovering at 124.2-4lbs and it is annoying the shit out of me. I cracked out my last ritalin that I took from my mom, in an effort to fast, since it's a slow release (GOD DAMN I HATE THOSE). I then was cutting it up to snort it and I found out that the coating on it (That makes it slow release) just peels off with some careful movements of a razorblade.

I widdled it off.

Like a pioneer.

Now I'm full of energy, and more importantly NOT hungry.

Oh! I forgot to tell you girls awhile ago that my mom is leaving in June for a week to go to Texas to help my brother out with some stuff (It's originally school stuff, but knowing how shitty it is living with his girlfriend, she's going to help with that too). I really have to make sure that my dad does NOT take off work because the whole week will be miserable, and we would have to do everything he wants to. If he doesn't take off work, I'll be able to have friends over and shit without any kind of parental intervention.

Then I could even have them over night and just have them stay in my room. Seriously my dad comes home and asks how I'm doing fromt he hallway then goes to his room. He also falls asleep super fast.

I HAVE to have my liscense by this time, because I might be getting a job at SuperCuts as a receptionist and I'll need a way to get there. See, my youngest brother's fiancee is a receptionist at another one, but they transferred her to the one I'm applying for, and now the chick quit at her first one so she's going back. But now she can put in a good word for me to work there. So I am REALLY hoping to get a job there, I need to get out of this house and socialize more. Because it exhausts me to even go to GED classes 3x a week, imagine what college will be like next year.

I am now second guessing about what I want my major to be in college now, I was going for a double major in ASL and theater, now I kinda want to do psychology instead of ASL. I think I'd be quite good at it, I know a lot about the inner workings, I'm empathetic and compassionate, and I'm not judgemental about these things. At the same time, I love languages and it'd be so cool to be a translator. See, my plan was to go to this college, get my Associates' in both theater and ASL (They have a lot of the same basic classes), then transfer to a 4 year university to pursue theater, while using my ASL tranlating on the side as a way to earn money. Then I'd always have a fall back if I didn't do well in theater. Theater would also help tremendously with ASL as it involves lots of facial expressions and body language.

Ah, I just don't know.