Getaways Turned Holidays

Yesterday I said I was going to start the ABC diet, I didn't.

I fasted like a champ.

And it was very hard, especially with the fact I got offered cookies twice at practice (I have such a paranoia of people assuming/knowing I have an ED). But I was teeming with energy from the drugs. When we got home my mom completely forgot that I hadn't eaten, so I went unpstairs and crashed.

I still haven't eaten yet, it's almost 7pm, and my Dad is going off to a town meeting thing (He's part of the budget commitee), and my mom is off getting my glasses fixed after MONTHS of not being able to wear them. Seriously I've been wearing a pair I have from 2 years ago because no one would get and/or bring me to get the lense replaced. This morning I thought I had lost them so I complained, since I haven't had any new ones from this back-up pair since 7th grade. So my mom is FINALLY at the mall doing it for me. But I just found my old ones and feel guilty for having her get them, then I think I SHOULD have had them months ago!

Now the only thing is, should I break my fast or should I just keep on it until tomorrow?

The second day of a fast is when I am ALWAYS the most hungry. I would just love to binge right now, it is so hard to break the habit of binging, which leads to purging.

In other news, the stimulants, combined with the fasting, put me at 127lbs today, sucess!

There's two cute boys in my GED class and it makes me even more obsessive about my weight. One, we'll call Blue, is very much a kid your parents wouldn't want you to date, he's a probationee and dresses very much in that stupid gangster style that annoys the shit out of me. But we do talk a lot about movies (He's the only one in our class who has also seen Mad Max) and is just generally fun to converse with. he's also the one I have the largest possibility of being with. Then there's this really cute boy who is only in on Thursday, math day, because he just needs to pass that test and another one. We'll say he's Farm Boy, he is my least likely, but he's SO cute.