Will You Be Me?

Play-by-play of the past days:

Friday: I was 118.6lbs. Then I ate at 7pm but took forever to purge, fell asleep but I did drag myself to do it at 2 or 3am.

Saturday: Didn't get to weigh-in, had to leave and go driving with my Dad (In prep for my Drivers' Ed next month). After driving I felt quite sick, I have really bad car sickness, so my Dad was like "Aw hell, let's go to Dennys'". He's overweight even with working out at the gym as much as he does, and it would disappoint him nto NOT go because we never spend time together. I had an All American Slam and 2 apple juices.

We then got a quad-toaster (It's realy freakin' awesome, and I have always wanted one of these) as ours broke over a week ago. Got chicken food for our chickens and then got 2 packages of gummy candy. My mom made dinner and I had to eat it (Steak stir-fry).

My brother (I'll call him Craigslist, as he spends all his time on it) came by and we had a physical fight. The start of the aforementioned fight? My dog was lying on the kitchen floor right next to my feet and I hit her stomach by accident. Of course then Craigslist has to goad me by saying I hurt her on purpose and kept saying that, teasing me, and frankly just pissing me off more and more. So I charged at him, trying to choke him and we briefly wrestled ending with his hand around my throat and my nails digging into his arm painfully so. It's got broken apart and I went to my room. I then had no way of throwing up so I (This seems to be happening a lot) fell asleep.

Intake:
Breakfast- All American Slam (700 estimating as I didn't eat the whole thing), 2 apple juices (182)
2 packs of gummies (380)
Dinner- Steak stir-fry (Around 500)
=1,762

Disgusting.

I have not eaten anything so far. I haven't even gone out of my room because I'm still mad that my parents did nothing to stop my brother from shutting his fucking mouth yesterday, but what's new. That's one thing that I've always hated about my family, my parents don't intervene when my brothers get too mean, then they wonder why I flip out. But I can never be mean to my brothers to defend myself, my Mom will jump on that quickly.

They also treat me totally different from my brothers besides being over protective. In high school my brothers had their girlfriend sleepover (In their beds with them!) at one point or another. And one of them even lived with us in the summer when she was in college.

Could that ever happen for me? No.

They don't even like me go over girls' houses if they're lesbians (That's Mom's part though). It's like they think the girls will turn me gay or (For guys as well) that all we are going to do is have sex. Seriously.

That's enough whining for today. In other news I'm going to prom again. My friend Twirl invited me to her prom (I went there last year with my guy friend), she didn't get a date even though she's really pretty and skinny. Most of the reason is because she's so shy, unconfident, and she has no boobs. The last she gets teased about all the time, I feel bad for her for that.

Now I have to find a dress, I was thinking a short white one as they look so chic and classy.