Set Yourself On Fire

My goodness, girls. I have been away for much too long.

I really have no idea why I've been away, I think it's just that I've been too wrapped up in life. Since I quit regular school, any kind of small activity that involves me going out of the house requires so much energy, but it's always been like that. Maybe I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, who knows?

I've finished my GED! It's such great news, but now I'm second guessing pretty much any choice about what to do next year. I'm leaning towards going to school part-time and doing beauty school. Or just go to school and then be a flight attendant after getting a degree in a language (Which means that I could do international flights, instead of staying in the country).

I don't know.

Freaking out over this.

Weight wise: I still keep going to the low 120's then I binge for a few days and get myself back to where I started. I know why (Scientifically and such), but I really have to fucking stop this shit.

Right now I'm at 127-128lbs after a 3 day binge on horrible foods.

Not only this, prom is on Friday, so this is now a time to see how much weight I can lose. That kid who's taking me, Clark Kent, has a serious case of Hover Hand (Look it up, trust me, it's hilarious). He's so super polite and he OPENS doors for me (Which I think is sorta weird, feminism happened but it's a nice gesture). I luckily am just like a geeky little boy, so we talk about Star Trek and all that good stuff. He also definitely seems to come from a rich family, he has a VERY nice car as proof.

Still, our personailties completely clash if you take out books and sci-fi/fantasy as our interests. I'm too quirky, loud, and not a "good girl", as far as drugs and such. And he already invited me to come with him to graduation parties with him, he just HAS to have a crush on me.

I WAS going to wear that Mila Kunis replica dress to prom, but now I can't as it was made in a way that it really can't be altered. So me and my mom went to the mall and got a dress for 30 bucks, pretty great deal, huh? I even got some super cute shoes that have ruffled, fabric flowers on the front. I'll post a picture of me in the whole ensemble, then you can finally see what I actually look like.

After prom I'm sleeping over Twirl's house with 3 other girls and this boy whom I used to be pretty good friends with in 7th grade (He left the school, and middle school is kinda a hard place to keep friendships), we'll just call him Paul Blart. I'm semi in charge of providing some pills, as we all have to bring some things.

Anyways, I need to go and get caught up on everyone's blog and exercise the hell out of myself for tomorrow.